so i hit up that dude. he played me. he told me that he never really even like me, that he stopped liking me after he found out i was a virgin..and that he thought i was crazy, and clingy..WOW. yes, my feelings are kind of hurt. and to top it off, he said "but ya know we could still be cool though." Really? as tho i want his charity. I am a bit hurt and im going to keep it real, today.
he said he thought i was crazy imagining wen we were hanging out- we were on dates.
first off, we had been flirting via, text, and it was snowing- hes all asking if I want to get snowed in with him etc.... and i was like nah, but u wanna grab a bite... to me that was kind of datish- b/c i was liking him flirty with him, and he reciprocated, so any outing we did during this period wouldnt be 100 percent platonic. Plus we are on a college campus with no cars/money..its not uncommon to go out on a "date" and not actually go out n go all crazy spending money..In fact our first official date was dinner at the dining hall.. so yea, im sry if we were flirty w/ each other and were eating at the d hall and i thought it was a date? was i that damn off?
Also, i feel like in sum ways he lead me on, hittin me up on fb- every time im online, and for valentines day saying oh u have plans but wen ur with him, u'll be thinkin of me! lol wtf..
What I learned: Basically I got to clingy/desperate.. I liked him, he was a 10 for me...I never get 10s if I get hit on- at all, so I really wanted this to work.
2nd. He would hit me up online, but wud hardly acknowledge me in public. I should 've known right there! I guess i knew he wasnt really into me- but ignored it b/c then he wud IM me, and be all flirty and so forth, what have u.
3rd. the fun part... He lead me on.. If u never really liked me, why are u flirting with me?? To feed ur ego? and saying things like insinuating that u want to come over, etc?? and if i asked u wat u feel about me, why not just say "i think ur cool, i def see u as a friend!" etc... "not i think ur cool... wanna come over?"
I ignored the obvious signs, and accepting his mixed signals(maybe he validated himself with my feelings idk) and yea i feel a lil stupid, cause having anyone think ur clingy/ crazy is never flattering... plus wat hes prolly told his frens about me...but u know what?
I shudnt think of it that way Im a funny,caring,sensitive, and honest girl im not afraid to get real with any of my feelings- i think theres sum maturity to that..... and any guy who only wants JUST the physical in this stage of my life is gona miss out on me..... pluss, I learned never to put all my eggs in one basket.. NEVER ignore the signs presented to u, and what else! always be myself-never caring wat people have to think about me, and of course always shoot for tens!!!!
EVERY DATing encounter, or "tlking" experience, is in turn just a learning experience!!!! It makes u more savvy as a person, and u grow into the awesome person u are!
cheers,
danielle.
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